Fear

Fear will drive you into a corner until you just can't move anymore, can no longer say any words for fear of the potential consequences, your mind always going down the dreadful path.

And then there's the side of you that is overly hopeful to the reception of information, and that side is what feeds the fear when that hope is crushed, those expectations not met.

So what to do, what to do, when everything lets you down down down.