Stirring

a horrible stirring surrounded my heart and started moving in a most awful direction of tears

I didn't want to let it out, let it grow
but I had no will to suppress it either
tears started fighting their way out
and I started wiping them away

and you just sat there
trying not to look at me
as I sat trying not to look at you
because it hurt to look at you
it hurt
to see your unfazed face unbothered by anything even me