Losing Confidence

Sorry but I don't have the confidence to keep things out there for more than ten minutes without having the worry and fear of disapproval overcoming my natural action of leaving things alone being overridden and me deleting the things I have said.

Why has approval become so important as of late? It's like I'm being crushed, suffocated by this gnawing worry. Even in the classes where I have "friends." If you can even call them that. They keep disappearing.

I don't belong. I don't belong.

And here I go, closing off from everything and everyone once more.

While at the same time wanting to open up so much.

We deserve much better than we have.