I'm Sorry

I'm sorry that I got comfortable around you

without the usual mask of reality upon my face, heart, and soul

after spending one month together

I'm sorry for believing you

when you said that you actually liked me

and that everyone else did too

I'm sorry for so easily falling into the façade

of being such close friends

and being there for each other

I'm sorry for not being like sheep

and acting like everyone else,

fawning over each and every move

of each and every person

and spicing up your life with sarcasm

I'm sorry that I wasn't entertaining enough

I'm sorry that I was under the delusion that we were all friends

that we were all having fun

that we were all enjoying ourselves

I'm sorry that the "real me"

wasn't good enough for you

didn't please you the right way

didn't make you smile every day like you wanted it to

I'm sorry to hear that

my fear has been confirmed;

you all secretly hated me

all along;

despite those reassuring words

my "bff" spouted out to me

It's nice to know

they were all lies.