Hope Hurts

It's funny how different a day can feel when it goes not at all like expected

like, when you expect to be sitting alone all day and suddenly your boyfriend shows up and joins you, it's a pleasant, brightening surprise

but when you expect to spend morning and afternoon into the evening with him and don't, then, it's a bit more lonely, more

disappointing

at least I have internet and music

and people to try and cheer me up? isn't that nice. 

scowling little me. I'll pretend it's school and move on. Please leave me alone. Please don't.

Lonely.