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I feel like I can't talk to you

because I can't keep the conversation afloat

and you're always distracted or something

he's either busy or doesn't want to talk to you

my mind always believes the latter

because it doesn't think in positives

and then I start rambling

telling you too much

which worsens the feeling of I feel like I shouldn't talk to you

at all

none of this is helping the anxiety i feel when i talk to people online

afraid of my words not being good enough

of pushing them away

and even one minute pauses feel like forever

filling my mind with doubts

endless doubts