It's always me that turns wonderful things into terrible things

Each case of loneliness
is always my fault

What do I hope to accomplish
by always letting the sadness consume me

You think that everything is going to go bad so you throw it all away

I cry all the time and get upset about everything I'm not even close to being even slightly okay

don't forget that

Everyone should give up on me

Unexpected

The night that I slept over at my boyfriend's house, in the morning when i was returning from the bathroom, i apparently perfectly performed a martial arts technique that even he hasn't mastered and he just sat there astonished, looking at me like i should know what i did
I shifted my weight and moved in such a way that i disappeared out of sight for a moment as i dipped down, and then launched myself into his bed and beside him, all in a matter of a fraction of a second
all this and i wasn't even awake yet


this and other subconscious occurrences of my perfect execution of martial arts moves just make me wonder...if i actually learned to consciously harness this, how potent could i become?




it might be because i'm always restraining and confining myself while conscious...at the edges i'm always...more.

Wretched girl that I am, I made him hate his favorite song I'm always taking things away from him denying him joy no more sleep for me

Rival Set

A most poisonous set of companions
throwing others into chaos so that they may carry on ever so smoothly
uncaring of the consequences in the unbalanced lives

It'll never be any different; there is no escape.

I built her too similarly for this to ever not happen

"You acted like the you I fell in love with. And that made me happy."

I know Hunter better in a year than his family his entire life

Proper response to anything that scares you and stands in your way: destroy it