I feel like I forced you into this instead of letting you be comfortable and grow
because otherwise I'd simply fall apart
Saturday, July 13, 2013
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Thursday, June 6, 2013
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
Unexpected
The night that I slept over at my boyfriend's house, in the morning when i was returning from the bathroom, i apparently perfectly performed a martial arts technique that even he hasn't mastered and he just sat there astonished, looking at me like i should know what i did
I shifted my weight and moved in such a way that i disappeared out of sight for a moment as i dipped down, and then launched myself into his bed and beside him, all in a matter of a fraction of a second
all this and i wasn't even awake yet
this and other subconscious occurrences of my perfect execution of martial arts moves just make me wonder...if i actually learned to consciously harness this, how potent could i become?
it might be because i'm always restraining and confining myself while conscious...at the edges i'm always...more.
I shifted my weight and moved in such a way that i disappeared out of sight for a moment as i dipped down, and then launched myself into his bed and beside him, all in a matter of a fraction of a second
all this and i wasn't even awake yet
this and other subconscious occurrences of my perfect execution of martial arts moves just make me wonder...if i actually learned to consciously harness this, how potent could i become?
it might be because i'm always restraining and confining myself while conscious...at the edges i'm always...more.
Monday, May 20, 2013
Rival Set
A most poisonous set of companions
throwing others into chaos so that they may carry on ever so smoothly
uncaring of the consequences in the unbalanced lives
throwing others into chaos so that they may carry on ever so smoothly
uncaring of the consequences in the unbalanced lives
Sunday, May 19, 2013
Wednesday, May 1, 2013
Friday, April 12, 2013
End
It's all over
I hurt you so badly for nothing
and I'm truly, truly sorry for that
nothing really ever lasts
everyone always leaves
and it's my fault
I hurt you so badly for nothing
and I'm truly, truly sorry for that
nothing really ever lasts
everyone always leaves
and it's my fault
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Dis oriented
Do you ever just wake up and forget which is reality and which is dream
I wish I could forget
I wish I could forget
Wednesday, January 9, 2013
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Down
It gets so bad that I'm no longer myself
I'm no longer that smiling laughing shining girl that everyone knows and loves
I become something much different
filled only with sadness, no smiles
and I need help
but I'm not likely to get it anywhere
people can't help me with this
I have come to that point where I recognize that I have a problem, I know exactly what the problem is
I just have no idea how to fix it
and you don't either. no one i know does.
I'm no longer that smiling laughing shining girl that everyone knows and loves
I become something much different
filled only with sadness, no smiles
and I need help
but I'm not likely to get it anywhere
people can't help me with this
I have come to that point where I recognize that I have a problem, I know exactly what the problem is
I just have no idea how to fix it
and you don't either. no one i know does.
Farewell
Sometimes she leaves with a smile
Sometimes she leaves with a kiss
Sometimes she leaves with tears in her eyes
this girl I will always miss
Sometimes she leaves with a kiss
Sometimes she leaves with tears in her eyes
this girl I will always miss
Sunday, January 6, 2013
Miss
The longer I go without seeing him the more I cry
I think that's the trend
or maybe it's all just a trick of my mind
I think that's the trend
or maybe it's all just a trick of my mind
Depress
I'm always sad all the time and I'm always crying all the time and I can't find a way to just stay happy the littlest things upset me and send me spiraling downward into a dark hole I've created specially for myself and I always make things worse I never make things better
I can't stand it and I don't know why you should have to really
no one should have to deal with me and my sadness
I can't stand it and I don't know why you should have to really
no one should have to deal with me and my sadness
Losing
I feel like giving this back means giving up the hold on your heart your happiness
it feels like giving up losing
Because this means that Jordan wins this means that I lose in my stubbornness this means that I lose and he wins and I don't want him to win I never want him to win
and my only coping mechanism would be of course becoming horribly bitter about it and never playing Playstation ever again
which isn't good I was looking forward to so many games that you wanted to show me...
it feels like giving up losing
Because this means that Jordan wins this means that I lose in my stubbornness this means that I lose and he wins and I don't want him to win I never want him to win
and my only coping mechanism would be of course becoming horribly bitter about it and never playing Playstation ever again
which isn't good I was looking forward to so many games that you wanted to show me...
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