I've created a distance between us
by spending so much time with him
I feared it'd be like this
and he doesn't understand
Saturday, September 29, 2012
Monday, September 24, 2012
Devestating
God, there's tears on my keyboard.
The Jon's no longer a part of SPG. They'll never be the same. And I missed out on their last performance together. I should have gone. I should have gone, no matter what.
Everything's ruined.
The Jon's no longer a part of SPG. They'll never be the same. And I missed out on their last performance together. I should have gone. I should have gone, no matter what.
Everything's ruined.
Memoir of Fear
I used to be afraid of hate. Of it growing in those I love until it
blocked me out entirely. Then it became something more than a
darkness haunting the edges of my dreams. It became reality.
Friday, September 21, 2012
Confession: I haven't been dealing.
Why would a mother call the cops on her own child? And lie about the
situation into more extremes, even though nothing was going to actually
fucking happen? Why the hell would she do that? Does she even know how
scarring that can be? And then carry on like nothing fucking
happened...leaving you to deal with it all by yourself. Why the fuck
would she do that?
What do you do when you're the only person in the world that cares about someone? When not even their family gives a damn?
And on and on and fucking on.
Vague, stupid me. Going to idiots.
Because I have to.
What do you do when you're the only person in the world that cares about someone? When not even their family gives a damn?
And on and on and fucking on.
Vague, stupid me. Going to idiots.
Because I have to.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Predator
I'd rather no one know precisely what it is I am capable of
so that I can always catch them by surprise
off guard
unexpected
with no room or time to
react
so that I can always catch them by surprise
off guard
unexpected
with no room or time to
react
Sunday, September 16, 2012
Contradictions
They want us to be able to live independently, to hold so much responsibility, yet at each step towards freedom they tighten the cage. Deny opportunities that will progress us forward, keep us contained in the space where we can do naught. Inhibit our growth, take away progress, load us up only on hindrances, and slowly suffocate us with the safety of unproductivity. Of home.
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Dawning Realization
There's that moment
where your tear-streaked eyes look into his
and suddenly he realizes
suddenly it all becomes so clear,
the absurd amount of grief in your heart
and he the reason
You can see the horrible realization so clearly in his eyes
that you cannot bear it, and turn away
where your tear-streaked eyes look into his
and suddenly he realizes
suddenly it all becomes so clear,
the absurd amount of grief in your heart
and he the reason
You can see the horrible realization so clearly in his eyes
that you cannot bear it, and turn away
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