No attitude is right.

The blame can't be pushed on other things,
for that's just avoiding responsibility

but it can't be right to just blame it all on oneself

Get in the car now
No!
Get in the car right now!
Ugh! Fine!

Whereas I, I do not exist.

My stomach is in a constant state of

unsettledness

The Pokémon in Southwestern Pakistan...

I read Pakistan as Pokémon....what does this say about me?

I don't give a damn, I'm happy as a clam

I seem to be retreating, retreating
slowly into my shell
try as I might not to
it seems I'm not hanging out with the right people

they shut me up inside, make me unable to say
anything
and I like them (and I) less and less


it's like something's shriveled up and died inside
there's this insatiable need to do something
and the inability to do anything
to occupy my fingers, my mind

and so it drifts
(sinks?)

I suppose you could call me lonely.
or you could just call me isolated.

either way,
I'm alone

Why is it so hard to breathe?

Why is it so hard to breathe?

Spiteful monster, begone
Yet it can never be banished
linger linger
ooze

I feel like crying and screaming
I wouldn't mind falling down some stairs

and breaking everything

I used to be so courageous
now I'm just afraid

Then, Now

I used to be able to run after you
I used to be able to stop myself from falling behind
I couldn't say anything then,
and I can't say anything now

I can't even

I can't say what I want to say because my mind is filled with doubt
I miss my confidence
I miss myself
I miss you

Woke up at 1am because the pain started kicking in...iced it and more meds, now back to bed....

My heel breaks toes!

It's better for my health
to just not care