Snap

I messed up big time. And now I feel empty, broken.

I don't want to do anything. I don't want to say anything.

So I won't.

Not ever again.

The invisible bruises hurt the most.

Maybe if I was a better person more people would hate me.

I'm afraid of reaching out for niceness
'cause I'm afraid of your cold shoulder
your display of rejection
or, worse,
refusing to acknowledge my existance

(A)Lonely

So desperately lonely she cannot escape
try as she might to carve out this gape
lips chapped and wind furiously trying to touch
she looks away from the other's much

Craving the company of someone, anyone
she can't help but feel that she hasn't won
since they, the strangers, have a friend
and she, though possessing many, is alone in the end

The war, it seems, is futile
she'll always end up solitary for a while
without the comfort of another's smile
she'll sit in solemn silence
and try not to think of my can'ts,
shortcomings, flaws
that, inevitably, leave me
breaking my very own laws

The Eternal Chase

I'm always chasing after her, even in my dreams

Lies. Truths.

I am a closet fan of nothing.

Admit It

As much as it pains to admit it, everyone makes other friends and moves on.

Eye War

Years ago, a boy had his eye stolen from him and then put in the eyesocket of an evil man.
Years later, this boy fell in love with a lovely girl with different colored eyes. In an effort to prove her love, she chased after the evil man and stole the eye of her lover back, ripping out one of her own eyes so the eye of her lover would be safe, and placing her other eye in the eye socket of the evil man. She then proceeded to carve out the brains of the evil man and

Someday I'll just snap and kill everyone

There's nothing pretty about me

I will never amount to anything

Breakdown

Don't have an emotional breakdown in the shower.

Even when everything's gone wrong today.